So I guess I’ll start by saying that obviously I don't blog anymore. And I don't really intent to start again. But seeing as how I’m laid up with a broken foot, I have some free time. And I’ve had these thoughts going around in my head lately so I thought it would be good to write it out. So here goes…
I’ve been thinking a lot lately about a story my Mom told me about when I was born. Along with all the tall tales of “how big my Hunter head was” and “the 18 hours of intense first time labor” was a really special moment with my Granny. As my Granny, my Dad’s mom, held me for the first time she looked at me and told me “You are going to have a great life”. Now I know this lady, my Granny, has extraordinary powers. She raised 5 Hunter children, 4 boys and then finally a girl. And by Hunter children I mean to smart for their own good, always into something, older than their age, smart-asses. Generations later we are still the same and who would want it any other way? So yes, Granny has special powers and I think she passed more than her genes onto me. She told me I was gonna have a great life and I really have.
So now of course I want to pass this magical power of a great life onto Jay. I want to whisper this into his ear every night before bed to increase the odds of this great life happening for him as well. This is what I’ve been thinking about so much lately. Making sure that Jay not only has the great life I had but even better is my main goal these days. It’s funny how him coming along has been a huge part of my great life and now my primary goal is to give him a great life which in turn makes mine better. It reminds me of an article I read shortly after having Jay that was about hormones and babies laughing. When Mom makes her baby smile/laugh a hormone is released in Mom that makes her feel good, which makes her want to keep baby laughing.
It’s funny how now when I read over my life goals they now read to me as a list of all the things I want to do and teach Jay. And I know now that because of him I will accomplish more of these things. Which makes sense to me but that is not what I hear other people say. Most people say “accomplish your goals first because once you have kids it’s not gonna happen”. And I feel exactly the opposite. I’m going to do more, save more, and work harder for the chance to set a good example, #43, and experience these goals with Jay. http://kyilivinthelife.blogspot.com/2009/06/goals.html
On top of wanting all these experiences with Jay I want him to feel the same way about his family that I always have. I always felt that I had the greatest immediate and extended family ever. On top of that I feel like my great life has come with a built-in best friend and second family that at times are easy to forget that we are not really related. And along the way we have picked up more friends that have become family. I know that my life would not have been the same without these people and I am so grateful to have them in my life. My great life happened because of these people.
To continue to add to my great life I got the pleasure of finding my babies Daddy, my (male) best friend, and husband at a young age. I think starting out that young with such a long road to go is definitely the hard way but again, I would not have it any other way. Everyone who knows Mike knows how happy and fun he can be, sounds like great qualities for a first time father. And as far as myself I’m really proud of who I’ve become and I’m happy with my life. I have always wanted to be a Mom so I am living my dream and you can’t ask for more than that. I hope that Jay feels lucky to have us as parents.
So with this great life for Jay as my main goal, its gonna happen! If there is one thing Mike could tell you for sure about me it’s that when I really, really want something, I find a way to get it. I want to thank my Granny for jump starting my great life. I want to thank all those family and friends that played a huge role. And I want to ask them all to be there for Jay so one day he can feel like I feel.
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Kim,
ReplyDeleteThis is so beautifully written and so obviously true. There is no love as wonderful as that of a Mother towards a child. This is because, I think, it is completely selfless and unconditional. Love that is given to another paradoxically feels better than love that is taken for oneself. The first time I felt it was when I had Jessica and then again with Laura.
Jay is such a lucky, lucky boy. To not only have a father and a mother that love him but he also has a family that adores him. I love looking at the photos of him and Sumner especially - he has always been great with kids, but Sumner is so full of light when he is playing with Jay. And, he already has Cathy completely smitten and wrapped :>) Soon we will all be painting with pudding at his next birthday party!!
I want you to know how grateful that I am to have you and your family in my life. You are like my daughter and it meant so much to me that you called me when you were hurting so that I could "poor baby" you. You are an exceptional young woman and I am so glad that I got to watch you grow up.
Raising all of you kids together will always be the best part of my life. Cathy is my best friend and sister and we had the best time with all of you kiddos!! We went to parks and beaches. Zoos and Chuck E. Cheese. Circle Lake and birthday parties. Ruidoso and Carlos and Charlie’s, Mexico. We all have had many ups and downs, but we have always been there for each other. Who could ask for more than that?
You know, maybe this broken foot will have had a silver lining if it causes you to slow down and count all of your blessings!! You do have a wonderful life……and I love you. Happy 2011!!